Yesterday at church we sang “Be Thou My Vision” for our last hymn. This is a long-time favorite of mine for many reasons, but mainly I love the lyrics and desire of the author to fix his eyes on Jesus. In 2 Chronicles 20 it catalogues Jehoshaphat’s prayer before going into battle. Knowing they are powerless against their enemies, he pleads to the Lord, “We do not know what do do, but our eyes are on you” (v.12).
This captures, I think, what our prayer is at the moment, and will continue to be on into parenthood. Help us to fix our eyes on you, Lord.
I walked down the aisle to this at our wedding, wanting to remind myself even right before taking my vows that Christ is my first love. As I reflected on this and how I want the same to be true for Liam (that is, that Christ would be his first love) I found myself weeping through the last 2 stanzas. I have to admit, it is not abnormal for me to weep while singing hymns (and this has nothing to do with pregnancy; I have a long history of crying in church), but the feeling of wanting something so badly for this little boy inside me was unreal.
The more we feel him kick and the closer May 6th gets, the more we realize that we are about to be parents. It is exciting and scary (the good kind of scary) at the same time. Sweet Deanna sent this for little Liam yesterday-can’t wait to put it on him!
Isn’t it just too sweet to see those little outfits and imagine a body in there! Hope is well! We’re praying for you three!